Wanna crawl back into bed again and read Harry Potter :( just having another depressive day, mainly started when Pete turned up in my class, not helped by the fact that Lydia was talking to him alot. Also says he was thinking of moving to Chelmsford next year, not that I'm gonna be here much but Chelmsford's my town, he's just so stalkery and makes me feel sick and scared whenever I see him :( and I can't go home for ages when I really miss my mum again :( plus my results weren't as brilliant as I hoped, really wanted two As, and the one I got wasn't even a high A :( Ugh just bad mood today, worrying and just general sad times...need a mummy hug

When I'm hungry, I get upset and angry for no reason. This explains why a lot of the time I am angry and feel emotional...but I can't stay looking like this.

Ya know when you have one of those days when you just want to crawl back into bed and read Harry Potter, pretending that you didn't wake up and the day just didn't exist?
I mean, it's not been that bad, nothing awful or life changing (as far as I'm aware) has happened (so far, as it's not even 2pm yet) but it just started bad, or maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
Firstly, Chris and Phil woke me up by being so loud in the kitchen so early this morning. Pete moaned at me for not confronting them - he doesn't understand why I don't conflict people, but I don't see the point in arguing about something so minor, it's just pointless. Internet wasn't working properly as Pete keeps turning off the router, so I couldn't get on x-box. Swear he does things like this to piss me off, I know he keeps moving the router antennae so I don't get a decent signal, and nicking my kitchen roll. He also didn't invite me to Frankie & Bennies but invited everyone else, not that I'd have gone anyway, I can't burn money like he does, it's too irresponsible for me.
Lecture was okay, Pete didn't turn up thank God, so only had to put up with one of his mates staring instead of him. But we'll see when I go back later if he's in my class or not :S
I got a grade that for my standards, isn't majorly brilliant - only a C - when some people did a lot better. I will try harder this term and for certain next year, I'm just worried that I won't achieve highly :( It's gonna be difficult enough to get a job as it is when I eventually graduate...
Also, I did the attendance task on e-vision this morning so that I can get the rest of the money owed to be, which would go towards my car insurance, and they say I'm not eligible, although I know that I am. So that's more bloody pain and hassle. Also I snapped at mum on the phone and feel bad. I just hate today.
Better get back to doing uni work, just felt like blogging, spesh as we have to do a blog for e-business. It better not get linked back to this one, I don't want everyone knowing my shit.

I need to stop reading forums on the internet for people with social/relationship problems. Just makes me paranoid, even though it probably is for good reason, that there's something wrong with me and I need to see a therapist for my fears of relationship related things.
Dunno why everything bothers me so much lately...I don't even know what I believe anymore. I'm too scared of everything.

Why do I feel so down tonight...actually feel homesick and sad and lonely and yuck, just wanna go home and be emo there but I am on duty so can't :(

Fuck love. It's all stupid anyway.

Oh Taylor Swift, you understand my feelings completely.